In an effort to ease my hurting heart this fall, I am participating in Project Heal: Capture Your Grief . It's a storytelling/photography project to honor the babies we've lost.
Day 7: Memory
We're still decorating "the rat hole", getting to know our neighbors, and being super excited about our future together. Neither one of us has really been touched by the loss of a baby, although, I had attended the funeral of a small child once before, and Gabe's aunt had a stillbirth. So, of course, we're excited to have children, we're excited to raise children, and we're just excited about life.
In this picture, I'm flipping through pictures, debating what to make us for lunch and secretly loving my checkerboard floor in the kitchen. (black and white checks).
It's a far cry from where I would be, mere days later...our first pregnancy suddenly ended, headed to the hospital, forever changed.
I had a hard time with this picture after she died, like I said. It's only been within the last few months that I've seen the value of keeping this picture...
It's a beautiful memory.
My time with my first daughter shouldn't only be marked by that tremendous loss.
In this picture, I am innocent. She is alive, and she is safe inside me. This picture is worth so, so much.