It's October, and friends, I hate October.
I would really be O.K. with cancelling my birthday, and Halloween, and pretty much everything this month.
October is the month Ms. Lora died. October is the month that so many things die. October is cemetery clean up at Riley's cemetery.
October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. There are days that I would rather stay in bed than do anything else...especially October 15th (Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day), and the 16th (the anniversary of Ms. Lora's passing), but I get up and light candles for the Wave of Light and make sure to remember Ms. Lora with Ella.
This October, I'm feeling especially down.
It's been raining for nearly a week...and now a hurricane is due to hit NC. For me, that just means a lot of rain, and possible flooding (especially since we live right across the street from the wetlands).
For the first time since Project Heal was started, I am participating. I will be blogging every day, and following Project Heal: Capture Your Grief . If any of my fellow babyloss mommies want to participate, and link up with me, please do. Let's all heal together.